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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
DON"T THINK SHE FORGET U DIDN'T THINK SHE LOVE U THO POE
later, she's just like: im sorry did i not like sleep w/ u about 50 times sayin each time was the last time like
gestures with hands
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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
JOKES ON U GUYS she definitely does this periodically in the future bc
she's a terrible person but
she always comes back
bc she loves her stupid husbands
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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 03:40 am (UTC)(link)
UR A FOOL POE

it's ok tho so is andy

he will get reminders that she loves him
50% when they're fighting in the heat of the moment
and 50% when she's bein soft
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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
he's probs cute af when he sulk tho
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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 03:51 am (UTC)(link)
good quality husband
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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
how often does rex have to break up fights btwn them tbh
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rex & poe & andy: first aid / bounty posters

[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 04:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ There's one good thing about being Scythian: She's tougher than most. May or may not have an auxillary heart. Regenerates pretty fast. In a few days, she'll be good as new — but damn, if that last mission wasn't a rough one. She's using one of the ship's windows as a mirror to survey the damage, pulling her shirt up to eye the impressive bruising all over her ribs. The cut above her eyebrow is still sticky with blood, a nice accent for the black eye she's forming.

There's never enough first aid onboard either. The three of them go through that shit like Andy goes through cigarettes. So she'd sent the boys out for supplies a little while ago. Maybe too long ago. A twinge of impatience nags — worry, maybe, though she's not likely to admit that to herself. Place is still probably hot, might still be people looking for them. Fuck, but she won't miss this place once they're off planet.
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poe & andy

[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ She doesn't know when all of this started to feel routine. When she started to make a routine around them. When it started to seem normal, having them with her all the time. This isn't how she planned it. Sometimes it makes her almost anxious to dwell on it too long — sometimes angry too. Angry at herself. Because it's hard to imagine being without them now — and that, she knows, is some stupid ass sentiment.

But at the same time, she hasn't made any real attempts to leave. She won't name the feeling that makes her stay, but she won't fight it as hard as she thinks she probably should either. So long as nobody makes her confront her own emotions, she can pretend it's a companionship of convenience. Because they make a damn good team, and because the money's not so bad, or because it's not like she has a ship of her own. A litany of reasons piled up over the real one.

It's that warm unnamed something that has her wandering up into the cockpit looking for some specific company. A dwindling cigarette hangs loosely from her lips, betraying her approach with the distinct smell of carababba tabac. She leans on the pilot's seat, nudging Poe lightly with her elbow.
]

Hey. You gonna come get some shut-eye soon?
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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 05:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ There's a few more things she's gotten entirely too used to: That smile. The constant touching. It's never really bothered her — but she's started to forget to pretend like it does.

Mildly:
]

Bullshit.

[ She rolls her eyes lightly — but only for show, because she's already leaning down, holding her cigarette off to the side so that she can press her mouth to his, fond and familiar. ]
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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 06:25 am (UTC)(link)
[ Andy glances over at the console as it dings, arching a skeptical eyebrow at it like she thinks the entire ship is probably in cahoots with its pilot. How is he always doing that?

Dryly:
]

If that actually worked for anything, I'd take one for the team and spend half our jobs kissing you. [ She leans over to put her cigarette out in the ashtray kept nearby to convenience her habit. ] I'm a good friend like that.
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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 02:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She yields to the tug on her belt loops more easily than she probably should, letting herself settle into his lap as she listens to the familiar cadence of his banter. It’s the usual back and forth for them - right up until he mentions Rex and something in her brain comes to a screeching halt

It’s rougher than it needs to be, when she shoves him back against his seat to give him a frown, her eyebrows pinched with some vague defensive emotion.
]

It’s not like that between me and him.

[ Which... Almost seems a ridiculous point to make, for someone like her. Someone who doesn’t much care who she fucks half the time. And even if she wasn’t fast and loose with those things, there’s no denying that she feels some kind of way about Rex - because she’s always betraying herself in small ways, the same small ways that she’s always betraying herself with Poe. Little moments of affection and familiarity. The unconscious way she’ll linger with her gaze or her touch. Things that contradict the show she makes of keeping everyone at arm’s length. ]
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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 03:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Maybe that’s what pisses her off about it - that some part of her wants to agree with him, even know she thinks she knows better. It always feels best when it’s the three of them together, whether they’re dodging blaster fire or having a quiet moment on the ship. But another part of her can’t consciously cross that barrier - that line between friendship and something else. Something more. She isn’t ready to face that or face the implications and worse, how acknowledging anything would make her fear of losing them too real.

With Poe, at least she can pretend the sex is casual - the way it started out, when they first met - but it’s too late for that with Rex. She’d have to confront the emotional motivation - and she’d would really, really rather not.
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There is no us, Dameron. [ The words are unnecessarily cruel by design, as if by being mean she can convince them both of what she’s saying - like her actions haven’t been saying the exact opposite all this time. ] We fuck. Sometimes we get shot at together. That’s it. [ She keeps her hand against his chest, forcing distance between them as if she isn’t still crowding his lap. ] And I like you fine, but you’re making a mistake if you think that means you get to call me out on some imaginary shit like you fucking know me.

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