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brat. ([personal profile] killtime) wrote in [community profile] sekkritaus 2018-12-03 06:50 pm (UTC)

[ No, no — she doesn't want to hear it. She doesn't want the words. Because the words make it real somehow, and she just... She can't

Her pulse is throbbing. Her lungs feel too tight.
]

You don't know what you're saying.

[ It's a ragged whisper, dragged free from her throat — gaining momentum as she grasps for any feeling that isn't that knot in her gut, twisting tight at the thought of loving and being loved back. ]

You don't know what the fuck you're talking about — [ There's a crack in her voice as she pulls back, opening space up between them as if she can't bear to be close anymore. ] Fuck you for saying it! Fuck you, Poe Dameron — [ She isn't ready to face this right now. She hadn't meant for this to happen. She hadn't meant to want the words or to want to say them back. ] I don't love him. And I don't love you.

[ It's a lie, and they both know it's a lie. If it wasn't a lie, she wouldn't say it with such desperate anger. Not Andy — Andy, who would placidly smoke a cigarette in the face of death. It's a lie bred of fear and longing, and not more convincing for the way she fails to meet his eyes as she says it. ]

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