[ It's almost fucking petulant. Look at her, old as dirt and half being stubborn for the sake of it now, because she's sour at being called out (and stunned, that too). The other half is... Fuck. It's just — their certainty frustrates her. How honest and simple they make the whole damn thing seem when she's been burying these feelings down deep for what feels like an age now, worrying that it would make her weak — that it would make the whole team vulnerable. Unwilling to say the words because she didn't want to know if she'd hear them back or not. Angry at herself for even caring about that.
Not that trying to keep it secret did her any good. Even when they'd fought, Poe had looked her in the face and told her he was sure enough of her feelings that he didn't even need her to say the words. He was saying the same thing to her now, even after the terrible lies she told. All that shit about not loving him and not loving Rex. He'd been hurt, but he hadn't believed her. So how fucking transparent has she been this whole time? ]
Fuck you both. [ Her voice cracks a little, rough around the edges. ] Fuck you for saying you love me. And fuck you for making it sound easy.
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[ It's almost fucking petulant. Look at her, old as dirt and half being stubborn for the sake of it now, because she's sour at being called out (and stunned, that too). The other half is... Fuck. It's just — their certainty frustrates her. How honest and simple they make the whole damn thing seem when she's been burying these feelings down deep for what feels like an age now, worrying that it would make her weak — that it would make the whole team vulnerable. Unwilling to say the words because she didn't want to know if she'd hear them back or not. Angry at herself for even caring about that.
Not that trying to keep it secret did her any good. Even when they'd fought, Poe had looked her in the face and told her he was sure enough of her feelings that he didn't even need her to say the words. He was saying the same thing to her now, even after the terrible lies she told. All that shit about not loving him and not loving Rex. He'd been hurt, but he hadn't believed her. So how fucking transparent has she been this whole time? ]
Fuck you both. [ Her voice cracks a little, rough around the edges. ] Fuck you for saying you love me. And fuck you for making it sound easy.