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[personal profile] killtime 2018-12-03 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't

[ She tries, she honestly tries — because maybe if she says the lie out loud enough times, she'll believe it. Or at least she'll get them to believe it, and then the whole fucking matter can be laid to rest, buried in a shallow grave where she can keep pretending she's too old and too tired to feel the way she feels about them.

But the lie is a painful one to utter. I don't love you. It stalls halfway out of her throat, leaving her frustrated and angry with herself.
]

I don't give a fuck what you do or don't do. [ That's what she finally manages, as she turns away, storming out of the cockpit. ] Doesn't make a damn difference to me.